The longest week ever

I have noticed since Kris went to Mesa I noticed I have changed somewhat I haven't hanged out with Nikki in a bit and I don't hardly talk on the phone much. This week he is going to San Diego or the week after. I have also found a new show I watch constanty Naruto.

A Kiss Goodbye

Kris is leaving to Mesa sometime later today. He is then going to San Diego after awhile from there. I plan to go visit in October. More on whats going very soon.

The role in my life

i have finally figured out my part in life. It is simple I am surprised I hadn't seen it before. Okay so I am the helper the one who helps others out when they need help. Being the helper I can't fall love because I am always helping people out. So one day I need to find a helper to pass my job onto and then I can finally be with someone.

A drink and the truth

So last night I had some peppermint Schnapps, 2 shirmonoff twisted apple, and a wine cooler. I also told Kris how much him going to California. I think in all that it was a great night and we had fun and alot of conversation which is good. I also told somebody that I liked them but they aren't feeling that way. They like me as a friend which doesn't bother me because when they told me they were honest and to the point. They are going to help me out in the help mark finding a boyfriend department.

The Truth Unravels

He is leaving in like a month or so. I prayed for god to take me instead and I don't belive in god I need Kris in my life maybe I should run away with him. When he leaves a part of me will die maybe the penguin part or the part of loving I can feel it. I hope god doesn't make him go but instead takes me along and kills me instead of Kris

He might leave

So I am talking to kris earlier tonight and he is like o heads up I might be going to california to move and take care of my grandma. I am shocked and don't know what to say. One of my best friends might be leaving me. It isn't like we won't talk again but wow. I just don't want him to go and forget about me