Clover Field comes out 1-18-08

The longest week ever

I have noticed since Kris went to Mesa I noticed I have changed somewhat I haven't hanged out with Nikki in a bit and I don't hardly talk on the phone much. This week he is going to San Diego or the week after. I have also found a new show I watch constanty Naruto.

A Kiss Goodbye

Kris is leaving to Mesa sometime later today. He is then going to San Diego after awhile from there. I plan to go visit in October. More on whats going very soon.

The role in my life

i have finally figured out my part in life. It is simple I am surprised I hadn't seen it before. Okay so I am the helper the one who helps others out when they need help. Being the helper I can't fall love because I am always helping people out. So one day I need to find a helper to pass my job onto and then I can finally be with someone.

A drink and the truth

So last night I had some peppermint Schnapps, 2 shirmonoff twisted apple, and a wine cooler. I also told Kris how much him going to California. I think in all that it was a great night and we had fun and alot of conversation which is good. I also told somebody that I liked them but they aren't feeling that way. They like me as a friend which doesn't bother me because when they told me they were honest and to the point. They are going to help me out in the help mark finding a boyfriend department.

The Truth Unravels

He is leaving in like a month or so. I prayed for god to take me instead and I don't belive in god I need Kris in my life maybe I should run away with him. When he leaves a part of me will die maybe the penguin part or the part of loving I can feel it. I hope god doesn't make him go but instead takes me along and kills me instead of Kris

He might leave

So I am talking to kris earlier tonight and he is like o heads up I might be going to california to move and take care of my grandma. I am shocked and don't know what to say. One of my best friends might be leaving me. It isn't like we won't talk again but wow. I just don't want him to go and forget about me

On The Open Road

So I don't know what to do, I have thought about leaving Arizona forver only because there is no one here for me or nothing here. I haven't an idea what to do. I have a feeling there is someone here but that person doesn't like me in that way. I have thought about just ending everything, then I won't have to worry about all this depression crap. Before I leave there is one thing I must do and I will do, make Nikki happy. Once i see she is happy then I will decide if I need to leave or stay.

predicitons for the future

Scary as hell


http://news.aol.com/topnews/articles/_a/scientists-offer-frightening-forecast/20070421184009990001?ncid=NWS00010000000001

some quizzes I took

Klein Sexual Orientation Grid

I scored an average of 3.62

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Heterosexual

Bisexual

Homosexual

Meaning

This result can also be related to the Kinsey Scale:


0 = exclusively heterosexual
1 = predominantly heterosexual, incidentally homosexual
2 = predominantly heterosexual, but more
than incidentally homosexual
3 = equally heterosexual and homosexual
4 = predominantly homosexual, but more than incidentally
heterosexual
5 = predominantly homosexual, incidentally heterosexual
6 = exclusively homosexual

Summary

The idea of this excercise is to understand exactly how dynamic a person's sexual orientation can be, as well as how fluid it can be over a person's lifespan. While a person's number of actual homo/heterosexual encounters may be easy to categorize, their actual orientation may be completely different. Simple labels like "homosexual", "heterosexual", and "bisexual" need not be the only three options available to us.

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The Multidimensional Scale of Sexuality

According to my answers, it is likely that I identify as
Sequential bisexual.

Complete set of results

Sequential bisexual:		4
Homosexual with some heterosexuality:		2
Concurrent bisexual:		1
Homosexual:		1
Past heterosexual, currently homosexual:		1
Asexual:		0
Heterosexual:		0
Heterosexual with some homosexuality:		0
Past homosexual, currently heterosexual:		0

Information

The Multidimensional Scale of Sexuality was devised by Larry Kurdek, B. Berkey and T. Perelman-Hall. It is an extension of the Klein Sexual Orientation Grid, recognising that sexual identities can change over time, people can identify with more than one sexual identity, and that asexuality is a valid sexual identity. The Multidimensional Scale of Sexuality was published in the "Journal of Homosexuality" in 1990.

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