Wednesday, February 28, 2007

updates

So yeah kris was basically taken away from me by his friend stealing girlfriend. Other then that I will never talk to her unless i have to, even if it means not hanging with kris again. It's something I will refuse to do. Why does the bad shit always happen to the good people and why are they always screwed over. Anyways besides that me and my friend Brianna might go to this group as well as my friend Josh or even my friend Eric. I seen Lisa she came into town a couple of days ago with Josh and my best friend Nikki. That was cool to see her a couple of days. With the leaving of my coworker Lawernce and him being assistant someone has to move up next promotion wise. i have a good chance at being assistant something I have wanted for awhile but to be honest, I don't want it. I will have to give up my weekends and even give up my thursday off. I don't want that though I would rather have thursday then anything because I gt it off for group. Anyways I have to work tonight so it means me missing out on LOST, but I will watch it in the morning or tommrow night. If anything next week. Also Heroes rules.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Miracle, Truly Madly Deeply, and Famous Last Words

Miracle by Cascada



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Truly Madly Deeply by Savage Garden



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Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance



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The Secret Is Up

I am coming clean with the truth about the secret lover he really is Kris but I am guessing whoever reads this either knew it or figured it out. I just wanted to come clean and if he doesn't care that I am honest about how I feel then screw him, I tried getting over him but it doesn't seemed to have work. especially with this latest stunt his girlfriend Katy pulled today. My anger rises and grows I guess then means I will have to do some writing that way to cleanse my anger. Maybe I should just go to bed also.

Revenge?????

Is it right to sabotage a relationship at the point of losing ones friend to know you saved him. I think so and I am leaning towards revenge in the hope that maybe I can save him. Looks like if I am going he will to.

All By Myself

so yeah me and Kris aren't getting a apratment because it seems he would rather pick water over something like his best friend me. In the end it seems the good guys end up last. Looks like I can only survive by myself so much for my saying of we should help one another because we can only help ourself. Kris looks likes he will be taken away from me well for the record thats 2 points for betrayl and 0 points for me

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Simple And Clean from Kingdom Hearts

You're givin me too many things
Lately you're all I need
you smiled at me and said,

Dont get me wrong I love you
But does that mean I have to meet your father?
When we are older you'll understand
What I meant when I said no
I don't think life is quite that simple

When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're makin me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go

The daily things that keep us all busy
Are confusing me
That's when you came to me and said,

Wish I could prove I love you
But does that mean I have to walk on water?
When we are older you'll understand
It's enough when I say so
And maybe some things are that simple

When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're makin me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go

Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this moring
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before

When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're makin me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go

Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this moring
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before

Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this moring
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before
So I found a awesome site called makemewatchtv and you vote for tv shows and the guy has to watch them. It sounds cool.




Happy Belated....

Happy belated Birthday to the state of Arizona it turned 95 years old and still is kicking for 95. It became a state in 1912. On another holiday that just happened Valentine's Day. I hate this day with a passion because of course I am stuck on being single. Yesterday frustruated me for 2 reasons.
1. I am coming down sick

2. My secret lover wanted to hang with me and he wanted his girlfriend to spend the night at my place. This is coming from a guy who knows I like him but yet he still does this. It's like he wants to see me angry. So tonight is another night of group. Hopefully my friend Lisa and Robert come into town they said they might if they do I will see if they want to go to group.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Valentine's Day

So as usual I am going to most likely spend my Valentine's Day home alone and then that night watch LOST. I am waiting for a miracle for that one to just call me and tell me he was wrong and loves me but I know it won't. Am I fooling myself in waiting for him or should I give up on him. I have thought about waiting for him forever even if it means to the death. I would even pretend to love people who loved me even if I didn't love them in return.

You Are Not It

So when the newspaper arrived at work, I looked at the newest headlines and stuff and one article stoodout to me. Schools banning the game of "It" and also other games like tag. They say they are banning these games because of injury's linked to the games. I was actually shocked and dissapointed to hear this. I mean yeah people get hurt playing games and stuff but banning a game that has been going around for ages. I mean most kids know the game of tag. Why not ban other games like sports I mean people get hurt in them and can get hurt seriously, worse then one can in tag.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Lyrics for My Heart Will Go On

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till were gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life well always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Youre here, theres nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
Well stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Friday, February 9, 2007

Mysterious Lights Spotted Over Phoenix, Again
(CBS4) PHOENIX, AZ Nearly a decade after the highly publicized ‘Phoenix Light Phenomenon’, more strange lights have appeared in the night sky over downtown Phoenix.

Tuesday night, mysterious lights lit up the western skies over Phoenix and soon after, phones began ringing off the hook at radio, television and police stations from witnesses wondering what the lights were.

The Yuma Marine Base claims it has the answer. Base officials said the amber-colored flares came from training flights on the Goldwater Gunnery Range. They went on to explain that the amber flares are used as targets.

Witnesses said it appeared the flares were flying in a formation and base officials explained that the flares float down to Earth attached to parachutes.

Back in March of 1997, a huge object was spotted over parts of Arizona that many witnesses believed to be an extraterrestrial spacecraft that was drifting slowly and silently over the region. The ‘Phoenix Light Phenomenon” became one of the most publicized and well-documented UFO sightings in recent history.

The Air Force said they were flares from an A-10 but many critics said flares couldn’t fly on their own over such a large distance.

The Discovery Channel has done a special on the lights. A movie has even been made about them which recently came out on DVD.

Also on the site where I got this story is a video heres the link since I don't know how to get the embedded code http://cbs4.com/topstories/local_story_038103140.html

Thursday, February 8, 2007

Anna Nicole Smith is Dead

Anna Nicole Smith Dies in Florida at 39
By SUZETTE LABOY
AP
HOLLYWOOD, Fla. (AP) - Anna Nicole Smith, the curvaceous blonde whose life played out as an extraordinary tabloid tale - Playboy centerfold, jeans model, bride of an octogenarian oil tycoon, reality-show subject, tragic mother - died Thursday after collapsing at a hotel. She was 39.

She was stricken while staying at the Seminole Hard Rock Hotel and Casino and was rushed to a hospital. Edwina Johnson, chief investigator for the Broward County Medical Examiner's Office, said the cause of death was under investigation and an autopsy would be done on Friday.

Just five months ago, Smith's 20-year-old son, Daniel, died suddenly in the Bahamas in what was believed to be a drug-related death.

Seminole Police Chief Charlie Tiger said a private nurse called 911 after finding Smith unresponsive in her sixth-floor room at the hotel, which is on an Indian reservation. He said Smith's bodyguard administered CPR, but she was declared dead at a hospital. Later Thursday, two sheriff's deputies carried out at least eight brown paper bags sealed with red evidence tape from Smith's hotel room.

Dr. Joshua Perper, the chief Broward County medical examiner who will perform the autopsy, said if her death was from natural causes, the findings would likely be announced quickly. He cautioned, however, that definitive results could take weeks.

"I am not a prophet, and I cannot tell you before the autopsy what I am going to find," he said.

Through the '90s and into the new century, Smith was famous for being famous, a pop-culture punchline because of her up-and-down weight, her Marilyn Monroe looks, her exaggerated curves, her little-girl voice, her ditzy-blonde persona, and her over-the-top revealing outfits.

Recently, she lost a reported 69 pounds and became a spokeswoman for TrimSpa, a weight-loss supplement. On her reality show and other recent TV appearances, her speech was often slurred and she seemed out of it. Some critics said she seemed drugged-out.

"Undoubtedly it will be found at the end of the day that drugs featured in her death as they did in the death of poor Daniel," said a former attorney for Smith in the Bahamas, Michael Scott.

Another former Smith attorney, Lenard Leeds, told the celebrity gossip Web site TMZ that Smith "always had problems with her weight going up and down, and there's no question she used alcohol." Leeds said it was no secret that "she had a very troubled life" and had "so many, many problems."

Smith attorney Ron Rale told The Associated Press that he had talked to her on Tuesday or Wednesday, and she had flu symptoms and a fever and was still grieving over her son. He dismissed claims her death was related to drugs as "a bunch of nonsense."

"Poor Anna Nicole," he said. "She's been the underdog. She's been besieged ... and she's been trying her best and nobody should have to endure what she's endured."

The Texas-born Smith was a topless dancer at a strip club before she entered her photos in a search contest and made the cover of Playboy magazine in 1992. She became Playboy's playmate of the year in 1993. She was also signed to a contract with Guess jeans, appearing in TV commercials, billboards and magazine ads.

In 1994, she married 89-year-old oil tycoon J. Howard Marshall II, owner of Great Northern Oil Co. In 1992, Forbes magazine estimated his wealth at $550 million.

In a 2005 interview with ABC, Smith recalled meeting Marshall at what she called a "gentleman's club" in Houston. "He had no will to live and I went over to see him," she said. "He got a little twinkle in his eyes, and he asked me to dance for him. And I did."

Marshall died in 1995 at age 90, setting off a feud with Smith's former stepson, E. Pierce Marshall, over his estate. A federal court in California awarded Smith $474 million. That was later overturned. But in May, the U.S. Supreme Court revived her case, ruling that she deserved another day in court.

The stepson died June 20 at age 67. But the family said the court fight would continue.

Smith starred in her own reality TV series, "The Anna Nicole Show," in 2002-04. Cameras followed her around as she sparred with her lawyer, hung out with her personal assistant and interior decorator, and cooed at her poodle, Sugar Pie. She also appeared in movies, performing a bit part in "The Hudsucker Proxy" in 1994.

In a statement, Playboy founder Hugh Hefner said: "I am very saddened to learn about Anna Nicole's passing. She was a dear friend who meant a great deal to the Playboy family and to me personally."

Smith's son died Sept. 10 in his mother's hospital room in the Bahamas, just days after she gave birth to a daughter.

An American medical examiner hired by the family, Cyril Wecht, said he died accidentally of a combination of methadone and two antidepressants. Last month, a Bahamas magistrate scheduled a formal inquiry into the death for March 27.

Meanwhile, the paternity of Smith's now 5-month-old daughter remained a matter of dispute. The birth certificate lists Dannielynn's father as attorney Howard K. Stern, Smith's most recent companion. Smith's ex-boyfriend Larry Birkhead was waging a legal challenge, saying he was the father. An emergency hearing in the paternity case was scheduled for Friday in Los Angeles.

Lawyers were expected to discuss an emergency motion filed by Birkhead's attorney seeking DNA from Smith's body, Rale said. The reasons for the motion were not immediately clear, but an attorney for Stern, James T. Neavitt, was frustrated.

"There's no question about her being the mother," he said. "So what's the purpose of the DNA testing? Why do they need her DNA?"

Debra Opri, the attorney who filed Birkhead's paternity suit, said Birkhead "is devastated. He is inconsolable, and we are taking steps now to protect the DNA testing of the child. The child is our No. 1 priority."

The legal complications of Smith's estate could take years to unravel, an expert said. Christopher Cline of the law firm Holland and Knight, who is an estate planning specialist, said he has never seen a case "with more moving parts."

Outstanding questions include not only the paternity of her daughter, but if she died with a will and how her death will affect the lawsuit pending against the Marshall estate. It also wasn't clear where she legally lived when she died.

"It's a really large legal quagmire," Cline said.

Smith was born Vickie Lynn Hogan on Nov. 28, 1967, in Houston, one of six children. Her parents split up when she was a toddler, and she was raised by her mother, a deputy sheriff.

She dropped out after 11th grade after she was expelled for fighting, and worked as a waitress and then a cook at Jim's Krispy Fried Chicken restaurant in Mexia.

She married 16-year-old fry cook Bill Smith in 1985, giving birth to Daniel before divorcing two years later.

AP Special Correspondent Linda Deutsch in Los Angeles and Associated Press Writers Sarah Larimer in Hollywood, Fla., and Ana Cholo in Los Angeles contributed to this story.

What A Awesome quote

"There have been about four men in my life that I could say I have loved...Call me a bugger if you like, but I don't feel the same way about women. One can always replace a woman in a few days" Aleister Crowley on his sexual orientation

Phone Experiment

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

RETURN OF LOST

Tonight one of my favorite shows returns to ABC, Lost. With 16 all brand new episodes to finish season 3 off. I love LOST because it is one of those shows that really makes you think about various things why watchign it. Thats all why I like Heroes and some other shows like Medium. So first off before I head out to get ready for tonight the one thing I gotta mention before anyone asks is, is who my favorite character is. It has to be either the wise and mystical Locke or even Jack the main character somewhat and the leader of the surviors.

Sunday, February 4, 2007

Blast Off

Well I am finally 21 it doesn't feel any diffrent then being 20 but still it means I am closer to growing up. I had my first legal alcholic drink, it was a peach margarita it was awesome and tasted really good. I bought my first legal scratcher today a SLINGO and I won 3 bucks. I might go get me some wine coolers soon they taste so good. i am not in the mood for anything hard tonight maybe this upcoming week.

Saturday, February 3, 2007

One Day Left

Here it is one day left untill I am 21 I can't wait although I will miss being young the thing I hate when you old is you have some many things to do. When you are a kid there isn't that much stuff to do. So I think I know what I am going to do for my 21st birthday. In the morning when I get off of work I am going to buy my 1st scracther card and then later on I will buy my 1st alcholic drink while I go out for birthday lunch then I will drink again during that night. The second night will be me hanging out with my friend Jackie and drinking. Also on a random sidenote some guy this morning at work was in circle k and we were talking and before he left he said by the way you are very cute. After he left I got so red because it was the first time someone had told me that ever. My seceret love has never told me that

Thursday, February 1, 2007

I have put myself out int he dating scene I understand someone may be cool about hooking up this one kid I sorta met through a friend his name is Chris. Also I have changed my picture on myspace and put on up from around july it looks hawt if you ask me and 3 days untill my bday