So another kid who I like sorta doesn't like me and he would rather pick my best friend Kris who he doesn't know to sit up front. Once again fucking love sucks, my friend Lisa has a girlfriend, Kris has someone who likes him, nikki one of my best friends is like me also with no one, and so is my friend Robert. I curse all my friends who have love I have given up so much I fuckign work so hard try to do my best at work and even act my best around people and try to look nice. But no I can't get anyone I am meant to be alone. These people who breakup with someone and get someone aka Kris should share the secret it fucking sucks and I m not going to stand by like usual. I am tired of being last and I will do what I did so many years ago. Time to end some relationships.

It's A Heartache by Bonnie Tyler

It's A Heartache Lyrics

Its a heartache, nothing but a heartache
Hits you when its too late, hits you when youre down
Its a fools game, nothing but a fools game
Standing in the cold rain, feeling like a clown

Its a heartache, nothing but a heartache
Love him till your arms break, then hell let you down
It aint right with love to share
When you find he doesnt care for you
It aint wise to need someone as much as I depended on you

Oh, its heartache, nothing but a heartache
Hits you when its too late, hits you when youre down
Its a fools game, nothing but a fools game
Standing in the cold rain, feeling like a clown

It aint right with love to share
When you find he doesnt care for you
It aint wise to need someone as much as I depended on you
Oh, its a heartache, nothing but a heartache
You love him till your arms break, then hell let you down
Its a fools game, nothing but a fools game
Standing in the cold rain, feeling like a clown

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Famous Last Words Lyrics by My Chemical Romance

My Chemical Romance Famous Last Words Lyrics
Now I know,
That I can't make you stay.
But where's, your heart?
But where's, your heart?
But where's, your,

And I know.
There's nothing I can say.
To change, that part.
To change, that part.
To change.

So many,
Bright lights they cast a shadow,
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding,
I'm incomplete?
A life that's so demanding,
I get so weak.
A love that's so demanding,
I can't speak.

I am not afraid to keep on living,
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay you'll be forgiven,
Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

Can you see?
My eyes are shining bright,
'Cause I'm out here, on the other side,
Of a jet black hotel mirror,
And I'm so weak.
Is it hard understanding?
I'm incomplete.
A love that's so demanding,
I get weak.

I am not afraid to keep on living,
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay you'll be forgiven,
Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

I am not afraid to keep on living,
I am not afraid to walk this world alone


Honey if you stay you'll be forgiven,
Nothing you can say can stop me going home.


These bright lights have always blinded me.
These bright lights have always blinded me.

I say.

Honey,
I see you lying next to me,
With words I thought I'd never speak,
Awake, and unafraid.
Asleep, or dead.

'Cause I see you lying next to me,
With words I thought I'd never speak,
Awake, and unafraid.
Asleep, or dead.

'Cause I see you lying next to me,
With words I thought I'd never speak,
Awake, and unafraid.
Asleep, or dead.

'Cause I see you lying next to me,
With words I thought I'd never speak,
Awake, and unafraid.
Asleep, or dead.

I am not afraid to keep on living,
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay you'll be forgiven,
Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

I am not afraid to keep on living,
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay you'll be forgiven,
Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

I am not afraid to keep on living,
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay you'll be forgiven,
Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

Lights, Camera, and Quacktion

Up the street they are filming a movie called Kids In America (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0810922/) It looks pretty cool and see them driving up and down the orad I might try and get pictures and I have seen Topher Grace but not up close. I can't wait to see this movie when it comes out maybe I will see myself.

So it's been a while since I have posted I have been busy like really busy working hard at work doing graveyards and second shift. This wek I only have one graveyard and 5 second shifts. It isn't that bad and gay pride is coming up april 14th and 15th yay

Welcome To The Black Parade/Emergency

Welcome To The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance




Emergency by Paramore

Yes Mark There Is God

Kris and Katy are broken up. YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am so happy to hear this but it isn't for what you think. If Kris asked me out again I would probably say no. I been hanging with my best friend Nikki these past late nights for like 2 hours or more. We just talk and laugh I love these nights it reminds me of when we used to talk for long hours on the phone. Doing this therapy is just what I needed especially when I don't know if I should be going for love or just staying single forever so that I am not tied down.

Celebrate

So lets see celebrating hmmm whats to celebreat a couple of things.

First off at work I work 2nd shift and 3rd shift both. I actually like both fo them because working 2nd shift for awhile I met alot of nice customers. 3rd Shift is nice and quiet most nights which gives me time to think about life and whats going on.


I actually plan to work on my newest story idea called Millenum. I think this one if it's good I migth try and publish and hopefully come August 07 I will read at group in the talent show along with a portion of Love Twist which I plan to redo and make better.


Phoenix Gay Pride comes Apirl 14th and 15th and I plan on going both days so I am looking forward to doing that so bad. Rock on Phoenix Pride.


Fianl thing with things to celebrate I figured I would post a happy song with a great beat to it.

The Llama Song, and Gummy Bear Song

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/llama.php

The battle of 08

so the election in 08 is coming up soner then we think. We are already in March that means 9 more months and if this year was like last year it went fast. i can't wait to see who runs and ultimatly who will win me over. I got my eyes on some people but we shall see. Heres a link for youtube of the diffrent canidates running for 08.

http://www.youtube.com/members?s=po&g=-1

Blackbeard

RALEIGH, N.C. (March 3) - A shipwreck off the North Carolina coast believed to be that of notorious pirate Blackbeard could be fully excavated in three years, officials working on the project said.

"That's really our target," Steve Claggett, the state archaeologist, said Friday while discussing 10 years of research that has been conducted since the shipwreck was found just off Atlantic Beach.

The ship ran aground in 1718, and some researchers believe it was a French slave ship Blackbeard captured in 1717 and renamed Queen Anne's Revenge.

Several officials said historical data and coral-covered artifacts recovered from the site - including 25 cannons, which experts said was an uncommonly large number to find on a ship in the region in the early 18th century - remove any doubt the wreckage belonged to Blackbeard.

Three university professors, including two from East Carolina University, have challenged the findings. But officials working on the excavation said Friday that the more they find, the stronger their case becomes.

"Historians have really looked at it thoroughly and don't feel that there's any possibility anything else is in there that was not recorded," said Mark Wilde-Ramsing, director of the Queen Anne's Revenge Project. "And the artifacts continue to support it."

Wilde-Ramsing said a coin weight recovered last fall bearing a likeness of Britain's Queen Anne and a King George cup, both dated before the shipwreck, further bolster their position. So far, about 15 percent of the shipwreck has been recovered including jewelry, dishes and thousands of other artifacts. The items are being preserved and studied at a lab at East Carolina University, and eventually more will become available for the public to view, Claggett said.

Nearly 2 million people have viewed shipwreck artifacts since 1998, including at a permanent exhibit at the North Carolina Maritime Museum in Beaufort and at a maritime museum in Paris, project officials said.

Researchers shared some of their findings Friday at the North Carolina Museum of History. They said studying the artifacts will provide insight into the era's naval technology, slave trade and pirate life.

Blackbeard, whose real name was widely believed to be Edward Teach or Edward Thatch, settled in Bath and received a governor's pardon. Some experts believe he grew bored with land life and returned to piracy.

He was killed by volunteers from the Royal Navy in November 1718 - five months after the ship thought to be Queen Anne's Revenge sank.